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| Tuesday, February 10th, 2009 | | 6:01 pm |
Competition
RULES: 1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer. 3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS. ( Here lies the meme. ) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? No Such Thing (John Mayer) Proving myself to those loser in high school!WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO? It's No Good (Depeche Mode) Er...WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Broadway (Goo Goo Dolls) Wow, talk about depressing. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Digital Love (Daft Punk) Er. They think I dream about love?WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Empty Walls (Serj Tankian) Well, I try not to be that depressing. Who knew? WHAT IS 2 + 2? Hakuna Matata (Disney's Lion King) Love it. Totally me. No worries. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? A Stray Child (.Hack//Sign Soundtrack) Lololol! That's so you. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Bad Touch (Bloodhound Gang) O...m...g... Not going there. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Love Theme from Romeo and Juliet Er. Married, it seems. Romantically. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Clocks (Coldplay) Hm. A song about man's fight against time. Uhm. I see age in him? XDWHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Such Great Heights (The Postal Service) Huh. Because...I'm a hopeless romantic?WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? All Star (Smash Mouth) Go with the flow. Totally. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Never Ever (All Saints) Bad breakups?WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? Come As You Are (Nirvana) Er... I act one way for society but its not me?WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW? ._. Penetrate (Godhead) Sex, obviously.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? Call of the Zombie (Rob Zombie) Hahahaha, creepy people. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS? Competition (Dragonette) Sure! | | 5:33 pm |
The Letter
Dear Lacey-chan: I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok in your apartment and I saw you ignore my best friend. I'm sure you're frostbitten enough to understand that I'm open. I'm returning your contact book to you, but I'll keep the oil stocks as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked the incarnation as an eskimo. Go burn, Dee. <3 I tag: madhatterpan, geeklovepoetry, and mana_muse. Curse my lack of friends. <3 Thanks Aiya, for the work. XD ------------------------ RULES: Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people (but I don't have that many friends, so I didn't :P), and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry. -> How you do the Letter Meme: Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal): I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ . ___12___, -Your name- 1. What's the color of your shirt? Blue - Our romance is over Red - Our affair is over White - I'll join the monastery Black - I dislike you Green - Our horoscope doesn't match Grey - You're a pervert Yellow - I'm selling myself Pink - Your nostrils are insulting Brown - The mafia wants you No shirt - You're a loser Other - I'm in love with your sister 2. Which is your birth month? January - That night February - Last year March - When your dwarf bit me April - When I tripped on sesame seeds May - First of May June - When you put cuffs on me July - When I threw up August - When I saw the shrunken head September - When we skinny dipped October - When I quoted Santa November - When your dog ran amok December - When I changed tennis shoes 3. Which food do you prefer? Tacos - In your apartment Pizza - In your camping car Pasta - Outside of Chicago Hamburgers - Under the bus Salad - As you ate enchilada Chicken - In your closet Kabob - With Paris Hilton Fish - In women's clothing Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation Lasagna - At the mental hospital Hot dog - Under a state of trance None of the above - With George Bush and his wife 4. What's the color of your socks? Yellow - Hit on Red - Insult Black - Ignore Blue - Knock out Purple - Pour syrup on White - Carve your initials into Grey - Pull the clothes off Brown - Put leeches on Orange - Castrate Pink - Pull the toupee off Barefoot - Sit on Other - Drive out 5. What's the color of your underwear? Black - My best friend White - My father Grey - Bill Clinton Brown - My fart balloon Purple - My mustard soufflé Red - Donald Duck Blue - My avocado plant Yellow - My penpal in Ghana Orange - My Kid Rock-collection Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper None - My John F. Kennedy-statue Other - The crazy monk 6. What do you prefer to watch on TV? Scrubs - Man O.C. - Emotional One Tree Hill - Open Heroes - Frostbitten Lost - High House - Scarred Simpsons - Cowardly The news - Mongolic Idol - Masochistic Family Guy - Senile Top Model - Middle-class None of the above - Ashamed 7. Your mood right now? Happy - How awful I've felt Sad - How boring you are Bored - That Santa doesn't exist Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage Depressed - That we're cousins Excited - That there is no solution to this. Nervous - The middle-east Worried - That your Honda sucks Apathetic - That I did a sex-change Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men Overjoyous - That I'm open Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks 8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom? White - Your ring Yellow - Your love letters Red - Your Darth Vader-poster Black - Your tame stone Blue - The couch cushions Green - The pictures from LA Orange - Your false teeth Brown - Your contact book Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs Purple - Your old lottery coupons Pink - The cut toenails Other - Your memories from the military service 9. The first letter of your first name? A/B - Your photo C/D - The oil stocks E/F - Your neighbor Martin G/H - My virginity I/J - The results of your blood-sample K/L - Your left ear M/N - Your suicide note O/P - My common sense Q/R - Your mom S/T - Your collection of butterflies U/V - Your criminal record W/X - David's tricot outfits Y/Z - Your grades from college 10. The last letter in your last name? A/B - Always will remember C/D - Never will forget E/F - Always wanted to break G/H - Never openly mocked I/J - Always have felt dirty before K/L - Will tell the authorities about M/N - Told in my confession today about O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about S/T - Get sick when I think of U/V - Always will try to forget W/X - Am better off without Y/Z - Never liked 11. What do you prefer to drink? Water- Our friendship Beer - Senility Soft drink - A new life as a clone Soda - The incarnation as an Eskimo Milk - The apartment building Wine - Cocaine abuse Cider - A passionate interest for mice Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations Mineral water - Embarrassing rash Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism Whiskey - To ruin the second world war Other - To hate the Boston Celtics 12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation? Thailand - Warm regards USA - Best regards England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail Spain - Go and drown yourself China - Disgusting regards Germany - With ease Japan - Go burn Greece - Your everlasting enemy Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard Egypt - Fuck off now France - In pain Other - Greetings to your freaky family Current Mood: accomplished | | Wednesday, January 14th, 2009 | | 3:55 pm |
>.>
So... it's only been like a year sens I posted, right? Whatever. Nothing special goin on, but Aiyakiu posted some pretty personality test, and well. I have a weakness, and it was exploited. So, here it is. I am an INFP. Introverted (I) 57% Extraverted (E) 43% Intuitive (N) 86% Sensing (S) 14% Feeling (F) 75% Thinking (T) 25% Perceiving (P) 77% Judging (J) 23% INFPs generally have the following traits: * Strong value systems * Warmly interested in people * Service-oriented, usually putting the needs of others above their own * Loyal and devoted to people and causes * Future-oriented * Growth-oriented; always want to be growing in a positive direction * Creative and inspirational * Flexible and laid-back, unless a ruling principle is violated * Sensitive and complex * Dislike dealing with details and routine work * Original and individualistic - "out of the mainstream" * Excellent written communication skills * Prefer to work alone, and may have problems working on teams * Value deep and authentic relationships * Want to be seen and appreciated for who they are The INFP is a special, sensitive individual who needs a career which is more than a job. The INFP needs to feel that everything they do in their lives is in accordance with their strongly-felt value systems, and is moving them and/or others in a positive, growth-oriented direction. They are driven to do something meaningful and purposeful with their lives. The INFP will be happiest in careers which allow them to live their daily lives in accordance with their values, and which work towards the greater good of humanity. It's worth mentioning that nearly all of the truly great writers in the world have been INFPs. | | Saturday, January 20th, 2007 | | 12:35 am |
| | Tuesday, April 4th, 2006 | | 9:58 pm |
If only I knew...
Whats wrong? I wish I knew. Something's been up lately...it's like... my emotions went away again? Maybe I'm just ready for the school year to end. Maybe I'm tired of only being alive on the weekends. Whatever it is, it's driving me crazy and making me do stupid things. Alienating people that really care about me. I haven't been able to deal with people in quantity or long times periods more and more often. Any more, all I do at school is sleep. Work silently through construction, sleep on the various bus rides. Sleep through rotc, ignore govt' class. We've got a test on Monday and I don't even know what chapter we're on. The most excited I've been all week was getting to vote today..and that lasted for all of five minutes. Maybe I'm depressed. I don't know. How do you tell if you're just depressed or if you actually just don't care? I'm sorry, anyone who I've been ignoring or mistreating. I really am, and I don't want to lose any of you. Just...forgive me and give me that space. -Dee | | Tuesday, March 21st, 2006 | | 7:36 pm |
Which Final Fantasy VII Character are You?
You are Vincent Valentine.You are a genetically altered former Turk who the party found asleep in a coffin "atoning for your sins" in the basement of the Shinra Mansion. Little is known about your past, but you're an awesome gunner and your limit breaks are extremely cool. You are a very serious type with a dark appearance, but you're really just a troubled spirit suffering from guilt from being unable to stop the birth of Sephiroth.
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| | Wednesday, December 28th, 2005 | | 9:51 pm |
| | 9:09 pm |
I've been having these weird thoughts lately...
Like...is any of this for real? ...Or not? So I finally get to play kingdom hearts, and come to find out, i hate it. XD The game itself is ingenious, I've just never really liked video games. And now I remember why. Because I suck at them. It's the same reason I don't do the jumpy quests in Maplestory. *shrug* So on one file, I'm stuck at the boss in Wonderland, and the second file, I can't jump to the stupid star tree to end the race with Riku. Doesn't mean I don't love the concept, and I'd probably kill to watch someone ELSE play the game. I just hate it. X_x; But yeah. It's all good. I got really frustrated at it earlier. Slammed down my controller (on my pillow, thankfully) and stormed off. Then I took a shower, clean on my room for a bit, and decided that I was going to write an intro or a fic tonight. Can't decide which one, and I probably won't, but it's okay. I needed to vent. xD Now I'm just going through my music library, making myself laugh. Keeps coming back to simple and clean though. Maybe I've got it stuck in my head form the game. Maybe I'm just a loser. I'm tired, even though I only woke up five hours ago. I hate breaks from school for that reason, but it's not like I'm going to actually do anytihng about it. Aiya brought over the coolest game the other day, and I want it so badly. Soul Calibur III pwns my heart and soul. I might try for it, when I take KH back. Then again, I might not. I dunno. It's killer cool, though. She made me a character before she came over and surprised me with it, and then we fought and fought to unlock the character thing she wanted. So I'm addicted, and want her to come back over and 'bring it' again. xD I was having fun kicking her butt, until she got that new character, and even thought we only had one battle, she wiped the floor with me! So yeah. Totally gotta get her back for that, but it made my day. On new years eve, Hikari is hosting a party. It was gonna be a real party, she was getting alcohol and everything. X_x; But that fell through, and to be honest, I'm kinda glad. I don't mind drinking, but since I don't easily get drunk, have drunk people around bugs me. Last year, her father and sister were SO killer drunk, I was getting sick off thier screeching. But I worry, because Hikari's work had got her every single day, lately. She's gonna be so burnt out...I think the party's gonna go sour the moment she realizes she justs wants to relax after working so much. I hope it won't be so, but I really don't think she's gonna be up for real partying after working for a week solid, eight hours a day and more. Aiya, Lar, Niss4n, and myself were makign a webcomic, but it's probably not gonna go up. Nissan's kinda a perfectionist, and since she's one of the two artists... yeah. Not to mention it's a lot harder with the four of us. When it was just me and Aiya, it was a lot simpler. Not that I'm complaining, I love the bits outta Lar, but since Lar and Aiya are at college, it's hard for us to collaborate. | | Monday, December 26th, 2005 | | 2:52 pm |
| | 2:32 pm |
Anything you can do-
- I can do better. I can do anything better than you! Rawr. I do indeed feel invincible. But not stupid, so I'm not gonna challenge Aiya on DDR until I get more practice (<---American spelling because the spellcheck told me too)! XD My ear cuff hurts. T_T But it's cool, cuz it looks so damn good. I'm looking forward to hearing from Aiya and seeing her again. I miss my friends that have gone away to college this time of year. The ones that I've moved away from I feel a little better about, since I got to go out with them on friday and blow hundreds of dollars, and I know I'll see them again at Hikari's new years eve party. Hurrah for illegal activities! XD ...Rawr. I think I'm gonna call Aiya and see if she forgot me! T_T I'll post again later! Oh: And back for my 'what I got list!' PS2, Dance pads, and a DDR game <--the only things I asked for. Some weird photo album things. X_x; A box...thing...for medals. <-- helps if you have more than two medals. A watch from my uncle! $$$ From people who are too far away to send me regular stuff! A desk organizer, scissors, and a stapler from 'my stepbrother', meaning my stepmom. *nod* Burnable cd's! some girly soap from my stepgrandmother Poets Shirt, A hot sweater, and a hat from hikari! This hot hot hot pic of Chaos and Dreamer, and a wing earring from Cho! And then I bought myself: A cool looking suit-coat type thing, and pleather pants! | | Tuesday, December 20th, 2005 | | 3:37 pm |
| | Sunday, December 11th, 2005 | | 9:19 pm |
Talk Shows On Mute
Quick, Your time is almost up
Make all forget that they're the moth
Edging in towards the flame
Burn into obscurity
Fault-lines should be worn with pride
I hate to say
There's so much more
There's so much more
Enduring with the sound turned off
I don't really understand myself. Do I have a home? If I do, where is it? Does 'home' constitute where you sleep, or where you feel most comfortable? Is Home ever really attainable? I spent the weekend with my friends. Did the social scene, did the dinner out with friends. Football games, movies and bowling, sitting in a deli, at the tall table and observing the world. Isn't it all so posh? The whole ride home, all I could do is sing along with the music and stare out the window, creeping closer and closer to a place where I'm never as happy. Thankfully, i don't notice once the maigc of it all wears off. I don't want to be here. I walked in the door and just froze, trying not to betray myself as I stared at the christmas tree. For years now, father and I have gotten our tree, gone out and picked it out, helped cut it down. Even when he's had other people in his life, I never thought he'd even consider going out without me. I should have seen it coming though, after the twenty dozen other traditions that have been broken. And now, all I can do is sit here, stunned, betrayed, listening to the same comforting song over and over and trying not to think too hard about how badly I want to be...someplace else. I want to say home, but I just can't. 'Home' is such a foreign concept, I don't know if I'll ever be able to place it. How hard would it be, I wonder sometimes. Could I be on my own right now? Can I get out? Sometimes, I know my life isn't all that bad, but being here, around my stepmother and watching my dad lose more and more of his personality... She's like some kind of soul-sucker or vampire, the way it's so impossible to be happy, or even in a good mood when she's close. I allowed myself to ignore so many things this weekend. I do it every time theres a chance for me to go back to Kansas, where all my friends are. I dind't write a paper that I should be working on, even right now, because I've let my gaurd down, enjoyed myself so much this weekend. I never figured out what I was going to do about things tommorow, when I need to be someplace I've never been by seven. I need to do so many things, I've put so much off. At least the military ball is over, right? It went pretty well. Chronicles of Narnia was beautiful. I never even hoped to see animators and film makers pull off things like gryphons and phoenix so beautifully. SPOILER: Don't read this if you haven't seen! The white witch was played by the same woman who played Gabrielle in Constantine, and I swear, i love her. But her costumers weren't the best, especially in later scenes. And Aslan, whom I'm pretty sure is voiced by 'Dumbledore'. So COOL. And the wolves. XD Loved them, and the fox, but all in all, I'd say...Edmund. Edmund the heart-throb. >3 I should get to work on the other things I need to do. I might rant more later, but then...I might have gotten over this wave of depression. 4dd13 | | Saturday, December 3rd, 2005 | | 3:45 pm |
~Belief~
1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, liposuction and air conditioning. 2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall. 3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. 4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal. 5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed. 6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children. 7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children. 8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America. 9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children. 10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans... --- Re-post this if you believe in legalizing gay marriage. | | Tuesday, November 15th, 2005 | | 6:32 pm |
I'm stuck on blogthings, help!
| You Are Somewhat Machiavellian | 
You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to! |
| Your Birthdate: November 19 | 
You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested.
You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them.
Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others.
You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself.
Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence
Your weakness: Suspicion of others
Your power color: Eggplant
Your power symbol: Spade
Your power month: October |
| | 6:16 pm |
New Quiz!
| Your Hidden Talent | 
You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.
And while this may not seem big, it can be.
It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.
You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices. |
| | 11:58 am |
bittersweet silence of the mind
So, I woke up this morning to thunder and lightning, and pouring down rain. Normally, that wouldn’t be a bad thing, except for the fact that it’s rapidly dropping towards the lower thirties. Now, it’s snowing, large fat flakes and a dismal grey sky. The thunder has stopped, but that only makes it worse, since it means this really is winter. I already ache for sunlight and ninety degree weather, and even sweat sounds glorious. It shows you how much I dislike the cold season. The snow is picking up speed, even as I sit here and watch. There’s already been one major accident just off of school property. How many will there be if this keeps up? People are already talking anxiously about snow days. Never mind that it’s still a week until thanksgiving break. Saturday is my birthday. I’ll finally be that dramaticized, golden age of adulthood that doesn’t really seem to be much more than another number. I’ll be able to vote, eventually. I could enlist. ( I could be drafted.) I can buy cigarettes, and so many little things that really aren’t important. It’s kinda disheartening. LATER… It’s a veritable blizzard now…about twenty minutes later. So far, none of the snow is sticking, but it’s rather frustrating for someone as cold-blooded as myself to look out the widows before me and know that I’m going to have to wear layers of clothes every day and curl around my heater as soon as I get home, and it’s not even December yet. AND AFTER THAT… I have too much fun with talking to myself…and calling it a journal entry. XD I’m off for lunch and the rest of the cold school day. | | Sunday, November 13th, 2005 | | 1:03 am |
Quizly!
~*~Result nr 1~*~  Your power is: Clairvoyance
Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.
Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.
What Power is Compatible With You? [beautiful anime pictures + 12 detailed results] brought to you by Quizilla | | Monday, November 7th, 2005 | | 11:17 am |
Can't get enough of you baby
Something about the sweet weather and a good taste in music has my wits and concentration scattered to the four winds. I can’t even type, every other key I hit is a miss. Of course, being on a school keyboard does NOT help that. Hmhm. Anyways, I’ve found a lovely story, and I’m only a chapter in to it, but every other word, I find myself looking up and staring out the window at the blue sky, glad that the day is already half through. It only feels as if it’s been a few minutes. Our class went to McDonalds instead of q-trip, and everything there is so much more $ in comparison… I don’t have anything left for lunch, and all I got was a biscuit and gravy. T_T Ah well, I’ll live. It doesn’t help that I left my coat at the shop, and that has the little bit of money I had left in it. I wonder if it would be worth it to skip sixth hour? I’m terribly tired of sociology, and the thought of going outside and just relaxing in the sunlight tempts me terribly. Of course, it doesn’t help that I’m kinda tired, either. A catnap would be…indescribably nice. Anyways, I’ll go for now. Stare out the window some more and try to gather my scattered thoughts. 4dd13 | | Friday, November 4th, 2005 | | 2:59 pm |
| | Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005 | | 3:12 pm |
I've got no strife, I'm lovin life...
Stoned - Smash Mouth Leave me alone I'm over it
And everybody's movin' on
I can't see my tomorrow and
yesterday has come and gone
So leave me alone
My mind is blown but it's my own
So deal with it
I'm feeling fine most the time
I may be on the outside
but no ones getting in
So leave me alone... So, has anyone else ever had a day that should really seem good, but the further and furtheer along into it you get, the crappier it seems? I should feel great! I'm graduating, and getting all kinds of cool things like my senior key and t-shirts and stuff... I didn't have to do anythign today, since my bus left without me after the senior meeting. After all, it's a good thing when you don't have to attend classes. No biggie that everyone forgets you. So...I spent most of my school day in the library, and didn't manage to acheive anything. No RP reply written, no good stories read. The only thing I can say for the whole day is that smash mouth owns my soul, because they're the mellowest stuff anyone could hope for. Did anyone ever ask you if you've had a nice day, and all you can say is- "I've had a day." Story of my life. Nothing exciting, nothing terribly bad or good or remarkable...just...wandering through the day, wondering if anythings going to happen this week. I've had the most irritating need to write, and not an ounce of creativity to work with. So I write this long, pathetic p.o.s, and maybe hope that I'll be sane enough to take it down once this mood is gone. The title of this really isn't true. I've got all kinds of strife, and it's all with the stepmother from hell. She's taken away my internet for a week now- I don't really care, I'll always have some kind of backup plan of something to do. She can't take away my imagination, if it comes down to it. Until then, I've watched more tv in the last two days than I've watched for the last two months. And if she takes that away, I have several new or re-readable books. Maybe she'll try taking those, then I have school work, and my own independent writing. I'll just have to be careful not to read what I write, ne? *lol* Yeah. It's not any of that that really gets me though. Every time I've come home since I went to that youth conference in atlanta, she's done something to my room in an attempt to get me to do something about it. Sunday, she'd emptied out all my drawers in my dressers that didn't have clothes. I put all my stuff back, of course. Yesterday, she'd f-ed with my laundry, no biggie, I'm used to that. Today, she's gone in and taken all the little plastic bins she put in my closet out- thank goodness. But she also took all my clean laundry and shoved it in a trashbag and left it at the bottom of the staircase. O.o; I don't know what the point was, except to bug me by f-ing with my stuff. And mixing in the few peices of dirty laundry I had in my room, which I don't really care about. But the whole point is, I'm tired of it. I thought I was over the point where I was dreaming and hoping of the moment I can move out of here, but I find myself planning it once again. and this time, it's a realistic ( to me ) plan. I'm eighteen in seventeen days, right? Then I'll apply for UPS - they're always hiring. Somehow, I'll have to manage getting a car. Maybe I'll borrow from dad, but maybe, I can hope my social security savings would be enough. I just need something to get me to and from, I don't care if its nice. Then, if I can do that, I can try to move in with my stepsister and her fiance. One of the upstairs bedrooms, I'll figure it out somehow. It'll be expensive, and might not even be legal, since I don't plan on changing schools, but I don't care. I can not keep going like this. Something has got to change, and its either me or Rosalie. Well, wish me luck, right? I'm gonna go debate between my two ideas for getting rid of the immediate problem. 4dd13 Current Mood:  annoyedCurrent Music: Stoned- Smash Mouth |
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