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Competition

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 00:06:33 GMT

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

( Here lies the meme. )

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
No Such Thing (John Mayer)
Proving myself to those loser in high school!

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
It's No Good (Depeche Mode)
Er...

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Broadway (Goo Goo Dolls)
Wow, talk about depressing.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Digital Love (Daft Punk)
Er. They think I dream about love?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Empty Walls (Serj Tankian)
Well, I try not to be that depressing. Who knew?

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Hakuna Matata (Disney's Lion King)
Love it. Totally me. No worries.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
A Stray Child (.Hack//Sign Soundtrack)
Lololol! That's so you.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Bad Touch (Bloodhound Gang)
O...m...g... Not going there.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Love Theme from Romeo and Juliet
Er. Married, it seems. Romantically.

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Clocks (Coldplay)
Hm. A song about man's fight against time. Uhm. I see age in him? XD

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Such Great Heights (The Postal Service)
Huh. Because...I'm a hopeless romantic?

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
All Star (Smash Mouth)
Go with the flow. Totally.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Never Ever (All Saints)
Bad breakups?

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Come As You Are (Nirvana)
Er... I act one way for society but its not me?

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
._. Penetrate (Godhead)
Sex, obviously.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Call of the Zombie (Rob Zombie)
Hahahaha, creepy people.

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Competition (Dragonette)
Sure!

The Letter

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 23:36:46 GMT

Dear Lacey-chan:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our affair is over. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok in your apartment and I saw you ignore
my best friend. I'm sure you're frostbitten enough to understand that I'm open. I'm returning your contact book to you, but I'll keep the oil stocks as a memory. You should also know that I never openly mocked the incarnation as an eskimo.

Go burn,
Dee. <3

I tag:
madhatterpan, geeklovepoetry, and mana_muse. Curse my lack of friends. <3 Thanks Aiya, for the work. XD

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RULES:

Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people (but I don't have that many friends, so I didn't :P), and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbor Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whiskey - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

>.>

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 21:58:25 GMT

So... it's only been like a year sens I posted, right? Whatever. Nothing special goin on, but Aiyakiu posted some pretty personality test, and well. I have a weakness, and it was exploited. So, here it is.

I am an INFP.
Introverted (I) 57% Extraverted (E) 43%
Intuitive (N) 86% Sensing (S) 14%
Feeling (F) 75% Thinking (T) 25%
Perceiving (P) 77% Judging (J) 23%

INFPs generally have the following traits:

* Strong value systems
* Warmly interested in people
* Service-oriented, usually putting the needs of others above their own
* Loyal and devoted to people and causes
* Future-oriented
* Growth-oriented; always want to be growing in a positive direction
* Creative and inspirational
* Flexible and laid-back, unless a ruling principle is violated
* Sensitive and complex
* Dislike dealing with details and routine work
* Original and individualistic - "out of the mainstream"
* Excellent written communication skills
* Prefer to work alone, and may have problems working on teams
* Value deep and authentic relationships
* Want to be seen and appreciated for who they are

The INFP is a special, sensitive individual who needs a career which is more than a job. The INFP needs to feel that everything they do in their lives is in accordance with their strongly-felt value systems, and is moving them and/or others in a positive, growth-oriented direction. They are driven to do something meaningful and purposeful with their lives. The INFP will be happiest in careers which allow them to live their daily lives in accordance with their values, and which work towards the greater good of humanity. It's worth mentioning that nearly all of the truly great writers in the world have been INFPs.

...Wow, and I thought they were joking when they gave me that nickname.

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 06:35:47 GMT

You Are 82% Evil

You're the most evil person you know.
The devil is even a little scared of you!

How Evil Are You?

If only I knew...

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 03:04:01 GMT

Whats wrong?

I wish I knew. Something's been up lately...it's like... my emotions went away again? Maybe I'm just ready for the school year to end. Maybe I'm tired of only being alive on the weekends. Whatever it is, it's driving me crazy and making me do stupid things. Alienating people that really care about me. I haven't been able to deal with people in quantity or long times periods more and more often. Any more, all I do at school is sleep. Work silently through construction, sleep on the various bus rides. Sleep through rotc, ignore govt' class. We've got a test on Monday and I don't even know what chapter we're on. The most excited I've been all week was getting to vote today..and that lasted for all of five minutes. Maybe I'm depressed. I don't know. How do you tell if you're just depressed or if you actually just don't care?

I'm sorry, anyone who I've been ignoring or mistreating. I really am, and I don't want to lose any of you. Just...forgive me and give me that space.

-Dee

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 01:36:38 GMT

Which Final Fantasy VII Character are You?

You are Vincent Valentine.You are a genetically altered former Turk who the party found asleep in a coffin "atoning for your sins" in the basement of the Shinra Mansion. Little is known about your past, but you're an awesome gunner and your limit breaks are extremely cool. You are a very serious type with a dark appearance, but you're really just a troubled spirit suffering from guilt from being unable to stop the birth of Sephiroth.
Take this quiz!

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Oh, lookie....a survey...

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 04:15:51 GMT

Borrowed from _pixiestyx/becksi!

APPEARANCE
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[ ] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles. ( Six. Yup. )

FAMILY/HOME LIFE
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

SCHOOL AND WORK
[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job. (According to me and my dad! School is my job.)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. ( That really bad flu two january's ago...)
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job/school!
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

EMBARASSMENT
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry. (Never did...?)
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose. ( If pudding counts! )
[x] I've had my pants rip in public. ( The hem came out! Ohnoes! )

HEALTH
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

TRAVELING
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. ( Anyone say ROAD TRIP?! )
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

EXPERIENCES
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star. (And the first star I see every night!)
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (Like Becki said: life’s not complete until you do)
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. ( >3 Fights are fun. )
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've been an abuse victim.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle. (*cough*nocomment)
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet. (Gah, I'm still going to murder that guy some day.)
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night. (Favorite place ever <3)
[x] I've played chicken. ( In my old Cougar! )
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now. (Come home, Cho!)
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[x] I've gotten divorced. ( From MY PARENTS, RAWR.)
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY
[ ] I'm straight.
[ ] I'm gay.
[ ] I'm bi.
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I love to flirt.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

HONESTY/CRIME
[ ] I am a terrible liar. (I’m fantastic at anything that reeks of deceit!)
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. ( Now why would I eeeevvverrr drive clear over to kansas to visit my friends?)
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

DRUGS/ALCOHOL
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I'm a stoner.
[ ] I've snorted cocaine.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms. <- <3 Maplestory
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. ( Those really tasty strawberry halls...mmm. )
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. (All THE TIME.)
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep. ( Fuck you too, Daddy dearest. )
[x] I see a therapist.

DEATH AND SUICIDE
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals. ( Soooo boring...sorry Auntie. )
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide. ( Wouldn't you know I was smart enough to get help!)
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've thought about attempting suicide more than once.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

MATERIALISM
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. ( All my moniesss. T_T )
[ ] I own a designer purse, costing over $100.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic. ( Several somethings!)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie. ( By accident. My brother didn't like the shirts, so I got them.)
[x] I own something from Hollister Co. ( Ditto. )

POLITICAL/SOCIAL ATTITUDES
[x] In general, I don't like people. ( Ewww, people! )
[ ] I'm a feminist.
[x] I'm outgoing.
[x] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[x] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm liberal. (Interesting combo, hey?)
[ ] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up. (Bad decisions. Rawr)
[x] I am for Bush. ( Better than the last two candidates I've seen, anyways. )
[ ] I'm religious
[x] I dress fairly modestly. (Sorta. Pleather pants. <3 But usually just good taste, right?)
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."

RANDOM
[x] I can sing well. (I like to think so.)
[x] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. (Taco Bell <3 )
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower. ( An' I don't care who hears it!)
[x] I am a morning person. ( If you can wake me up I am!)
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I've copied more than 20 CD's in a day. ( It was music day, yup.)
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. (Red! Yey!)
[x] I would wear pajamas to school. (All the time!)
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish in one spot.
[x] I love white chocolate. ( *goes and gets a bar* )
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest!

I've been having these weird thoughts lately...

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 03:35:38 GMT

Like...is any of this for real? ...Or not?

So I finally get to play kingdom hearts, and come to find out, i hate it. XD The game itself is ingenious, I've just never really liked video games. And now I remember why. Because I suck at them. It's the same reason I don't do the jumpy quests in Maplestory. *shrug* So on one file, I'm stuck at the boss in Wonderland, and the second file, I can't jump to the stupid star tree to end the race with Riku. Doesn't mean I don't love the concept, and I'd probably kill to watch someone ELSE play the game. I just hate it. X_x; But yeah. It's all good.

I got really frustrated at it earlier. Slammed down my controller (on my pillow, thankfully) and stormed off. Then I took a shower, clean on my room for a bit, and decided that I was going to write an intro or a fic tonight. Can't decide which one, and I probably won't, but it's okay. I needed to vent. xD

Now I'm just going through my music library, making myself laugh. Keeps coming back to simple and clean though. Maybe I've got it stuck in my head form the game. Maybe I'm just a loser.

I'm tired, even though I only woke up five hours ago. I hate breaks from school for that reason, but it's not like I'm going to actually do anytihng about it.

Aiya brought over the coolest game the other day, and I want it so badly. Soul Calibur III pwns my heart and soul. I might try for it, when I take KH back. Then again, I might not. I dunno. It's killer cool, though. She made me a character before she came over and surprised me with it, and then we fought and fought to unlock the character thing she wanted. So I'm addicted, and want her to come back over and 'bring it' again. xD I was having fun kicking her butt, until she got that new character, and even thought we only had one battle, she wiped the floor with me! So yeah. Totally gotta get her back for that, but it made my day.

On new years eve, Hikari is hosting a party. It was gonna be a real party, she was getting alcohol and everything. X_x; But that fell through, and to be honest, I'm kinda glad. I don't mind drinking, but since I don't easily get drunk, have drunk people around bugs me. Last year, her father and sister were SO killer drunk, I was getting sick off thier screeching. But I worry, because Hikari's work had got her every single day, lately. She's gonna be so burnt out...I think the party's gonna go sour the moment she realizes she justs wants to relax after working so much. I hope it won't be so, but I really don't think she's gonna be up for real partying after working for a week solid, eight hours a day and more.

Aiya, Lar, Niss4n, and myself were makign a webcomic, but it's probably not gonna go up. Nissan's kinda a perfectionist, and since she's one of the two artists... yeah. Not to mention it's a lot harder with the four of us. When it was just me and Aiya, it was a lot simpler. Not that I'm complaining, I love the bits outta Lar, but since Lar and Aiya are at college, it's hard for us to collaborate.

I saw it in Aiya's journal, don't ask!

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 20:52:46 GMT

Who is your Harry Potter love match? (for girls)
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Anything you can do-

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 20:38:38 GMT

- I can do better.
I can do anything better than you!

Rawr. I do indeed feel invincible. But not stupid, so I'm not gonna challenge Aiya on DDR until I get more practice (<---American spelling because the spellcheck told me too)! XD My ear cuff hurts. T_T But it's cool, cuz it looks so damn good. I'm looking forward to hearing from Aiya and seeing her again. I miss my friends that have gone away to college this time of year. The ones that I've moved away from I feel a little better about, since I got to go out with them on friday and blow hundreds of dollars, and I know I'll see them again at Hikari's new years eve party. Hurrah for illegal activities! XD ...Rawr. I think I'm gonna call Aiya and see if she forgot me! T_T I'll post again later!

Oh: And back for my 'what I got list!'

PS2, Dance pads, and a DDR game <--the only things I asked for.
Some weird photo album things. X_x;
A box...thing...for medals. <-- helps if you have more than two medals.
A watch from my uncle!
$$$ From people who are too far away to send me regular stuff!
A desk organizer, scissors, and a stapler from 'my stepbrother', meaning my stepmom. *nod*
Burnable cd's!
some girly soap from my stepgrandmother
Poets Shirt, A hot sweater, and a hat from hikari!
This hot hot hot pic of Chaos and Dreamer, and a wing earring from Cho!
And then I bought myself:
A cool looking suit-coat type thing, and pleather pants!

damn you becki

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 21:37:57 GMT

Crowley writes sonnets to Aziraphale

What's Your Ultimate Fandom OTP?
Shiver My Timber--A Pirate RPG

got it in three!

Dumbledore is stalking Gandalf

What's Your Ultimate Fandom OTP?
Shiver My Timber--A Pirate RPG

...old love?

DarthVader has an eye on GreenArrow

What's Your Ultimate Fandom OTP?
Shiver My Timber--A Pirate RPG

XD

Kenny secretly desires Dash

What's Your Ultimate Fandom OTP?
Shiver My Timber--A Pirate RPG

Aww. Too bad Dash'll be a widower in no time.

And on another note:

Talk Like a Pirate Day is September 19!
What Pirate do YOU Talk Like?

Talk Shows On Mute

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 03:44:34 GMT

Quick, Your time is almost up
Make all forget that they're the moth
Edging in towards the flame
Burn into obscurity

Fault-lines should be worn with pride
I hate to say
There's so much more
There's so much more

Enduring with the sound turned off

I don't really understand myself. Do I have a home? If I do, where is it? Does 'home' constitute where you sleep, or where you feel most comfortable? Is Home ever really attainable? I spent the weekend with my friends. Did the social scene, did the dinner out with friends. Football games, movies and bowling, sitting in a deli, at the tall table and observing the world. Isn't it all so posh? The whole ride home, all I could do is sing along with the music and stare out the window, creeping closer and closer to a place where I'm never as happy. Thankfully, i don't notice once the maigc of it all wears off.

I don't want to be here. I walked in the door and just froze, trying not to betray myself as I stared at the christmas tree. For years now, father and I have gotten our tree, gone out and picked it out, helped cut it down. Even when he's had other people in his life, I never thought he'd even consider going out without me. I should have seen it coming though, after the twenty dozen other traditions that have been broken. And now, all I can do is sit here, stunned, betrayed, listening to the same comforting song over and over and trying not to think too hard about how badly I want to be...someplace else. I want to say home, but I just can't. 'Home' is such a foreign concept, I don't know if I'll ever be able to place it.

How hard would it be, I wonder sometimes. Could I be on my own right now? Can I get out? Sometimes, I know my life isn't all that bad, but being here, around my stepmother and watching my dad lose more and more of his personality... She's like some kind of soul-sucker or vampire, the way it's so impossible to be happy, or even in a good mood when she's close.

I allowed myself to ignore so many things this weekend. I do it every time theres a chance for me to go back to Kansas, where all my friends are. I dind't write a paper that I should be working on, even right now, because I've let my gaurd down, enjoyed myself so much this weekend. I never figured out what I was going to do about things tommorow, when I need to be someplace I've never been by seven. I need to do so many things, I've put so much off. At least the military ball is over, right? It went pretty well.

Chronicles of Narnia was beautiful. I never even hoped to see animators and film makers pull off things like gryphons and phoenix so beautifully. SPOILER: Don't read this if you haven't seen! The white witch was played by the same woman who played Gabrielle in Constantine, and I swear, i love her. But her costumers weren't the best, especially in later scenes. And Aslan, whom I'm pretty sure is voiced by 'Dumbledore'. So COOL. And the wolves. XD Loved them, and the fox, but all in all, I'd say...Edmund. Edmund the heart-throb. >3

I should get to work on the other things I need to do. I might rant more later, but then...I might have gotten over this wave of depression.

4dd13

~Belief~

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 21:45:40 GMT

1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, liposuction and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans...
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I'm stuck on blogthings, help!

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 00:33:08 GMT

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

How Machiavellian Are You?

Your Birthdate: November 19

You are resilient, and no doubt your resilience has already been tested.
You've had some difficult experiences in your life, but you are wise from them.
Having had to grow up quickly, you tend to discount the advice of others.
You tend to be a loner, having learned that the only person you can depend on is yourself.

Your strength: Well developed stability and confidence

Your weakness: Suspicion of others

Your power color: Eggplant

Your power symbol: Spade

Your power month: October

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

New Quiz!

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 00:16:54 GMT

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.
And while this may not seem big, it can be.
It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.
You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

bittersweet silence of the mind

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 17:58:23 GMT

So, I woke up this morning to thunder and lightning, and pouring down rain. Normally, that wouldn’t be a bad thing, except for the fact that it’s rapidly dropping towards the lower thirties. Now, it’s snowing, large fat flakes and a dismal grey sky. The thunder has stopped, but that only makes it worse, since it means this really is winter. I already ache for sunlight and ninety degree weather, and even sweat sounds glorious.

It shows you how much I dislike the cold season.

The snow is picking up speed, even as I sit here and watch. There’s already been one major accident just off of school property. How many will there be if this keeps up? People are already talking anxiously about snow days. Never mind that it’s still a week until thanksgiving break.

Saturday is my birthday. I’ll finally be that dramaticized, golden age of adulthood that doesn’t really seem to be much more than another number. I’ll be able to vote, eventually. I could enlist. ( I could be drafted.) I can buy cigarettes, and so many little things that really aren’t important. It’s kinda disheartening.

LATER…
It’s a veritable blizzard now…about twenty minutes later. So far, none of the snow is sticking, but it’s rather frustrating for someone as cold-blooded as myself to look out the widows before me and know that I’m going to have to wear layers of clothes every day and curl around my heater as soon as I get home, and it’s not even December yet.

AND AFTER THAT…

I have too much fun with talking to myself…and calling it a journal entry. XD I’m off for lunch and the rest of the cold school day.

Quizly!

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 07:03:42 GMT

~*~Result nr 1~*~

Your power is: Clairvoyance

Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.

Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.

What Power is Compatible With You? [beautiful anime pictures + 12 detailed results]
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Can't get enough of you baby

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 17:24:33 GMT

Something about the sweet weather and a good taste in music has my wits and concentration scattered to the four winds. I can’t even type, every other key I hit is a miss. Of course, being on a school keyboard does NOT help that. Hmhm. Anyways, I’ve found a lovely story, and I’m only a chapter in to it, but every other word, I find myself looking up and staring out the window at the blue sky, glad that the day is already half through. It only feels as if it’s been a few minutes.

Our class went to McDonalds instead of q-trip, and everything there is so much more $ in comparison… I don’t have anything left for lunch, and all I got was a biscuit and gravy. T_T Ah well, I’ll live. It doesn’t help that I left my coat at the shop, and that has the little bit of money I had left in it.

I wonder if it would be worth it to skip sixth hour? I’m terribly tired of sociology, and the thought of going outside and just relaxing in the sunlight tempts me terribly. Of course, it doesn’t help that I’m kinda tired, either. A catnap would be…indescribably nice. Anyways, I’ll go for now. Stare out the window some more and try to gather my scattered thoughts.

4dd13

I passed LIFE. Yey.

Fri, 04 Nov 2005 20:59:58 GMT

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.8
Mind:	7.6
Body:	6.8
Spirit:	9.2
Friends/Family:	3.8
Love:	3.1
Finance:	5.5
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

I've got no strife, I'm lovin life...

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 21:13:03 GMT

Stoned - Smash Mouth
Leave me alone I'm over it
And everybody's movin' on
I can't see my tomorrow and
yesterday has come and gone
So leave me alone
My mind is blown but it's my own
So deal with it
I'm feeling fine most the time
I may be on the outside
but no ones getting in
So leave me alone...

So, has anyone else ever had a day that should really seem good, but the further and furtheer along into it you get, the crappier it seems? I should feel great! I'm graduating, and getting all kinds of cool things like my senior key and t-shirts and stuff... I didn't have to do anythign today, since my bus left without me after the senior meeting. After all, it's a good thing when you don't have to attend classes. No biggie that everyone forgets you. So...I spent most of my school day in the library, and didn't manage to acheive anything. No RP reply written, no good stories read. The only thing I can say for the whole day is that smash mouth owns my soul, because they're the mellowest stuff anyone could hope for.

Did anyone ever ask you if you've had a nice day, and all you can say is- "I've had a day."

Story of my life. Nothing exciting, nothing terribly bad or good or remarkable...just...wandering through the day, wondering if anythings going to happen this week.

I've had the most irritating need to write, and not an ounce of creativity to work with. So I write this long, pathetic p.o.s, and maybe hope that I'll be sane enough to take it down once this mood is gone.

The title of this really isn't true. I've got all kinds of strife, and it's all with the stepmother from hell. She's taken away my internet for a week now- I don't really care, I'll always have some kind of backup plan of something to do. She can't take away my imagination, if it comes down to it. Until then, I've watched more tv in the last two days than I've watched for the last two months. And if she takes that away, I have several new or re-readable books. Maybe she'll try taking those, then I have school work, and my own independent writing. I'll just have to be careful not to read what I write, ne? *lol* Yeah. It's not any of that that really gets me though. Every time I've come home since I went to that youth conference in atlanta, she's done something to my room in an attempt to get me to do something about it. Sunday, she'd emptied out all my drawers in my dressers that didn't have clothes. I put all my stuff back, of course. Yesterday, she'd f-ed with my laundry, no biggie, I'm used to that. Today, she's gone in and taken all the little plastic bins she put in my closet out- thank goodness. But she also took all my clean laundry and shoved it in a trashbag and left it at the bottom of the staircase. O.o; I don't know what the point was, except to bug me by f-ing with my stuff. And mixing in the few peices of dirty laundry I had in my room, which I don't really care about.

But the whole point is, I'm tired of it. I thought I was over the point where I was dreaming and hoping of the moment I can move out of here, but I find myself planning it once again. and this time, it's a realistic ( to me ) plan.

I'm eighteen in seventeen days, right? Then I'll apply for UPS - they're always hiring. Somehow, I'll have to manage getting a car. Maybe I'll borrow from dad, but maybe, I can hope my social security savings would be enough. I just need something to get me to and from, I don't care if its nice. Then, if I can do that, I can try to move in with my stepsister and her fiance. One of the upstairs bedrooms, I'll figure it out somehow. It'll be expensive, and might not even be legal, since I don't plan on changing schools, but I don't care. I can not keep going like this. Something has got to change, and its either me or Rosalie.

Well, wish me luck, right? I'm gonna go debate between my two ideas for getting rid of the immediate problem.

4dd13

Haven't you heard?

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 00:29:43 GMT

Haven't you heard?
I fell in love with a beautiful stranger

...

You're the devil in disguise
That's why I'm singing this song to you

To know you
Is to love you
You're everywhere I go
And everybody knows

I paid for you with my tears
And swallowed my pride

Beautiful stranger...
Beautiful stranger...

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So, everyone should come to expect music lyrics from the Addie, on the odd chance that I do update. I've never been able to keep a xanga, but maybe this will be different? I'm just kind of bumming around, doing one of these to avoid the ritual known as sunday night room cleansing.

...Or maybe it's just to piss off my evil stepmother, because I know she hates it when I ignore her ranting. Maybe I'll have more later? Yeah, sure. Or maybe I'm already bored...

4dd13